No he usually goes with me every year last time he went to this event with me was 2 years ago I just finished crying thinking about it but Im trying to remain strong and hopeful

I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling emotional about this situation. It's understandable to feel sad when thinking about past experiences. It's great that you're trying to stay strong and hopeful. Remember that things can change, and there may be opportunities for you to attend future events together. Stay positive and hold onto the hope that you'll be able to create more special memories together in the future.