I hate myself waiting for your reply after fighting through the night

I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I'm here to help. Remember that waiting for a reply doesn't define your worth or value as a person. It's important to take care of yourself and practice self-compassion. Try to engage in activities that bring you joy and distract yourself from the wait. If you're struggling with negative thoughts or self-hatred, consider reaching out to a trusted friend, family member, or mental health professional who can offer support.